I'm not- Money's not- He's-

Caer knows better. I know better. These people are strangers. They don't know me or our situation. Yes, we're dating, but I didn't- I was never interested in how rich he or his family is. I suppose it isn't a completely unfair assumption, considering how different our backgrounds are. Didn't I once assume that he would never look at me that way for reasons like that? And I know he isn't with me for only any physical perks- it isn't as though we are..how do they say? Shagging like bunnies?

Either way. It doesn't matter.

Whoever decided something like this would shake me up- they might have been right.

Thank you for your kind words. I am glad that you know that I am not- I am certainly not with Caer only for his family's money or for sex. I still can't entirely believe that they decided to attack us like this, but I suppose it should be no surprise.

We'll just have to prove to them that we can rise above this.

I have a boyfriend. Me. I almost can't believe it. I mean, things haven't really changed much, except now he walks me to class and we kiss every once in a while and okay, I still can't believe it. I know we should tell our teammates, though they aren't blind and I'm sure they've noticed something's different with us. Or maybe not? I honestly don't know. I'm nervous to, though. It isn't going to affect our playing, and the last thing I want is for it to affect our team-- I don't really think it will, anyways. We won't let it, and I trust the team would say something if it begins to.

A part of me wonders what on earth he sees in me, but I don't want to question it. I just want to enjoy this. I deserve happiness too, don't I?

Hi. Are you busy? I was thinking we could hang out a little or something. And..I was thinking. We should probably tell the rest of the team. You know, about us. Do you think it would be better to do it over the journals, or just..blurt it out in person? I don't..I don't even know.

I've just realized that I've been a terrible friend to you ladies and we've hardly spoken recently. I- I miss you both.

Jana? Um, do you have a moment? I was hoping- I was hoping to just..talk-

You see. I should probably just write it.

Caer and I are dating.

That was amazing!

I, um. Did I kiss any of you last night? I'm afraid I can't quite remember.

I haven't had a chance to properly thank you for everything over break. I really enjoyed spending time with you and your family, and I had a wonderful time at the gala. You really are the best.

What was that? I should have done better. I know I can do better. That was an awful game; I know I could have outflown that bludger, and-

I hate this feeling. I wonder if I can sneak out for a bit.

Anybody else feel like going for a late night run? It's either that or vodka- both are sounding pretty good right now.

Hey. Do you think you might be up for a girls' night some time this weekend? I could use a bit of girl talk and something fun. And maybe we could invite Dani, and..I am not sure who else? But if you're too busy or anything, that is completely okay!

What do you think of Svyatovit for kitten's name? You know, the Ukranian name for the Slavic god of war.

Oh! I received the broomstick back from Coach-- he says it is safe to fly, so I get to start practicing with it this weekend!

I received a broomstick as a gift today, and I do not know who it is from. I brought it to Coach for him to look at, and he is currently checking it for any hexes or anything of the like. If it is truly a gift- a safe one- then I must figure out who sent it; it is truly one of the nicest presents I've ever received.

I also spoke with Tanner, and he has made his apologies. I have decided to give him another chance as simply friends, but did warn him that if he ever does the same, I cannot be held accountable for the actions of my friends. Nevermind what I would do to him. So we shall see what will happen.

Seventeen. I turn seventeen tomorrow, and I..I don't know how I feel about this. I wonder if бацька will even remember. Or care. Likely not, as he hasn't spoken to me in over a year. My бабуля would have remembered. I wish she was still here, but I should not dwell on this. I should not be down. I am lucky- I have friends, I am on a winning team, and this is shaping up to be a very good year.

Is it terribly uncommon to wish to do something really stupid to celebrate one's birthday? I don't really know what just yet, but I want to do something different!

I do not understand boys. He wants my forgiveness. He says he wishes to be friends. I am not particularly inclined to grant him that right now after everything he said to me at the ball. I do not care how nice he's tried to be when he greets me between classes. I cannot imagine that he would say something without believing what he says, even if he believes it only temporarily.

Attached is a copy of the owl Anya received.

Except I think a small part of me would like to be friends-

This is stupid.

Would it be wrong of me to wish revenge for the embarrassment of Sunday evening?

Hello, ladies. I think we have only met briefly, so I thought I would introduce myself once more, and try to open up discussion for our project. Do any of you know anything about Mexico?

Hello. I was wondering if you might be interested in spending some time together again soon? I would like to try to get to know you better, if we are to be friends or whatever else we might consider it. I would understand, of course, if you would rather not.

Thank you for helping me with all of the Halloween costume shopping this weekend. I had a lot of fun at Hogsmeade!

Well, that was fun while it lasted. I have mixed feelings on the return to my own form- it isn't really that I want to be a man, but I think I liked the way I was as a boy.

I also managed to lose my virginity. As a male. I wonder if that should count. It was with one of the boys in female form, too- it was easier to initiate than I thought it might be.

Hi. Um. Can we- are we-

did you mean all those things- Please forgive me for being so forward with you this weekend. I think I was a bit overwhelmed by the new body.

School has hardly been in session for two weeks and I have already received detention. I was not even trying to spy on tryouts and now I have to worry about detention and being not in trouble. I know detentions happen but I do not want them to send me back to Durmstrang for getting into trouble-- there were stipulations and..I do not know. I cannot afford this. I simply must do better.